Hello there Anon!
Thank you for your question.
As for drugs I never done injected drugs or illegal drugs. I did smoke for about 2 years ( I been clean for a year) , so i do know to some extent how something can get you hooked and have something you depend on. I also seen needle marks on myself a lot of times cause I been hospitalized a lot and they had me connected to a bunch of medication for pain, and sedatives. I was always wearing jackets to hide them.
I have gotten drunk a few time ( with friends ) so I have an idea how it feels. Never been waisted though, yet I know friends that have been. Seeing them like that helps me get and idea how to write a character that is not completely ok on all his senses.
As for what I feel about drugs. I don’t think they are cool, or nice or fun. I think it’s sad and painful seeing a person fall to that extent cause of bad influences or looking for a way to escape reality, and your own demons even if it’s for a little bit.
It breaks my heart to hear that about your brother. Hopefully he can overcome this phase and be back on his feet. It’s horrible seeing a person being consumed by an addiction-
( talking from expirance - my father is an alcholic and my best friend is a junkie )
As for my doll, Jaxx( my migidoll ryu- the one with the needle marks) is a character based on the idea of a child that comes from a broken home. His father is not around, and his mom is an alcoholic. He thinks his life has no direction, and everything breaks down on him when he losses the love of his life. (( there’s a bit of fiction in his story, making Jaxx bit completely human, making his need to ignore the changes in himself that scare him something he wants to forget(( I’ll post his story up soon -who was a collab rp with princesyu ) so he prefers being high, drunk or stoned before facing the reality that he has nothing worth living for ( or so he believes ). So in that belief of living in the now he does everything he wants, messes around, sleeps around, and waisted his days in the bar.
One of the reasons I made a doll like that was to portrait all that, and show that even with all his problems people with addictions are still people and have good hearts, and sometimes they are just looking for a way to ease the pain in their hearts.
His character is very old and means a lot to me to finally give him a resin form :)
I hope I manage to answer your question. I hope your brother manages to get better… I wish you a wonderful day ! :)